better than this

Every thought, I gotta keep in check
Even though it’s probably for the best
And it’s like I oughta be a mess
‘Cause I automatically am
And I never got to be your man
Know I envy whoever he is
I just know we could do better than this
And you left me a wreck

I never [?]
Can’t I just [?]
I know I’d leave you red
We’d never leave your bed
You'd always [?]
You’d [?]
Now can I see it then?
Can’t you just [?]