I hate how
I do this
time and time again
don't want to
live through this
take me back to then
if I could go back and tell me what I should have known
then maybe I wouldn't have ended up all alone
164 days
through all this time I've had to wait
made me feel these different ways
I know it's much too late
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too long to
live in a dream that was always a nightmare
I wanted
to hold onto the only time you cared
tell me it's a lie
tell me that you'd never leave from beside me
from beside me
tell me it's all right
tell me that you never meant to hide me
hide me
I THINK OF YOU
AND I DON'T KNOW
HOW TO FEEL
WHILE I'M WAITING
AND WAITING
FOR ALL OF MY SCARS TO HEAL
164 DAYS
THROUGH ALL THIS TIME I'VE HAD TO WAIT
MADE ME FEEL THESE DIFFERENT WAYS
I KNOW IT'S MUCH TOO LATE
BECAUSE
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TOO LONG TO
LIVE IN A DREAM THAT WAS ALWAYS A NIGHTMARE
I WANTED
TO HOLD ONTO THE
ONLY TIME YOU CARED
(why do I...)